This is the LAST time I'm going to make an entry about this. If you people that read my fics don't start fucking commenting, I'm going to pull them and kick you off my friends page. I haven't made my fics friends only like the rest of my entries, simply because I like people reading them, and I like comments. If the various threats I've given about the fucking subject haven't been enough to get your asses into gear, then I'm going to have to start being a bitch.

I'm sick of this. I'm sick of having to rant about this to the few people that actually try to take five fucking minutes out of their day to drop a line and tell me, "Hey, I liked your fic." How fucking hard can that be? Pretty damn hard, from the look of things, since my comment number has gone from over a hundred per fic all the way down to four per fic. Has my writing really gotten that bad, or have all of you really started to hate me, or are you just so fucking lazy that you can't be nice to a friend?

And I know that I must seem really anal about this, but look at it from my point of view. Every single time I write, I put my entire heart and soul into it. It doesn't matter if I'm writing humor, fluff, or angst, I still give everything I have into every word. And how do you think it makes me feel when after all that effort, not even my friends bother to tell me what they think? The only people that have been commenting on my things lately are lost_in_my_sol (and a couple others, if you've been commenting, then you know who you are, and if you are, I hug you) and complete strangers. What the hell does that tell you?! It tells you that complete and total strangers care more about me than you do. They actually read the little notes that ask people to comment, and, what do you know, they DO.

It is a complete slap in the face when I put everything I have into something for you, and then not even get a "by your leave." Because to me, that is saying, quite eloquently might I add, that you don't care about me. My personal posts might be about my personal life, but that doesn't make them me. When people make random posts in their ljs, they do it to get laughs, or to rant, or whatever else they might do. But that isn't THEM. They don't put everything they have into every single entry. And neither do I. But when I write a fic, it's me. I give my heart and soul to my readers in every word. And I cannot possibly describe to you how much it hurts when you don't even acknowledge its existence.

And I can't just stop writing. If I were to do that, it really would kill me. I can't lose the one piece of Pierrot that I have left to hold on to, I can't. But if no one else even bothers to read my stuff, then my fandom is already dead anyway, and I'm just trying to hold onto something that isn't even there anymore.

And I'm not going to do this anymore. I'm sick of having to make an entry like this every couple of weeks and then see nothing at all come of it. I'm not even asking you to comment on this. What I'm asking is for all of you to go back and leave comments on my fics.

Like I said, this is your last warning. If you don't care enough about me to actually take the time to read this, then that says a lot too. Because this is really what the whole thing is about. It's a matter of caring about me. I'm not lying when I say that I put everything I have into everything I write. A lot of you have actually mentioned before that you've noticed it. Then why don't you care? Because if you don't care, then you have no business being on my friends list at all.